When troubles melt like lemon drops

I made Jon climb on a wall and pluck me a bunch of jasmine flowers yesterday at Rushcutters Bay. Now i have them sitting in front of me and they make me happy. Jon also bought me a big bunch of flowers on Thursday. They sit in my bedroom and continue to bloom. Today, another lily opened up. Saturday, i went to confirm my wedding flowers with the florist. The daisies we're growing for our reception are blooming and we've stopped pruning them so they can flower abundantly and look pretty for everyone. I have had two dreams of flowers. They seem to consume me these days.

For breakfast today, i had swiss muesli with strawberries, creamy vanilla yogurt and soy milk. It made me wonder why i paid $11 for the exact same meal (minus the strawberries) at a cafe last week.

I had a great weekend with Jon. We had a public holiday in Sydney on Friday so it was even sweeter. It rained most of the time, except for Sunday afternoon when it cleared up for good. But we still managed to fit in a coastal walk on Friday morning, where it seemed to be that there was a patch of blue sky above us and only above us, when we sat down on the rocks to enjoy the sound and sight of the waves. Everywhere else was grey and thundery. It was just so nice to be able to sit down and do nothing but enjoy nature and each other. We also saw a rainbow. I savour these moments that we carve out for ourselves, to stop and listen and feel and touch and see. I also watched "We are Marshall" and "Finding Forrester" on DVD and enjoyed them very much.

It seems that everyday, someone asks me how the wedding planning is going. I truthfully say that it is going well. We have nothing much left to do. Some days i wish we could skip the wedding and move on to the marriage part. Over with the hoo-ha and back to reality. Jon tells me that i would most certainly hate it if that were to happen and he's right. If i close my eyes, i can see my friends and my family in the garden. I can hear the music playing and my dad and me walking down the aisle. I only feel joy when i think about it. And really, i want that ivory dress and sahara roses and to have pancakes for brunch! It's a dream that has somehow become real, through an unfathomable sequence of events.

But some days are brighter than others. Some days, i take comfort in a cup of tea and the flowers surrounding me, bold and bright and beautiful.

Meanwhile, spring continues.